LOVE IS ALL. I love @lindsey_joy. YL oiler. #beatsforbeckham #hudsonbehr #DTID #youngliving #hellowellness
This Texas winter has me missing the winter wonderland we had in Michigan over the holidays! Sooo beautiful, cold and fun! Hudson loved the snow and just wanted to play outside. We had to resort to a timer in order to convince him that it was time to go inside! He loves his “Papa and ‘Ma!” #hudsonbehr#puremichigan
2017 sure was a doozy. I still can’t believe that testicular cancer became part of my story. Looking back on these pictures just puts me right back in that chair listening to the doctor explain everything and my mind just not able to keep up. 24 hours later waking up from surgery and feeling like “what just happened!?” And then the 9 weeks of chemo that were just miserable. But, in the midst of all that misery, pain, and darkness was love. Love from @lindsey_joy who encouraged me and kept me going. Love from friends and family who showed up with meals, hugs, gifts. Love from so many who prayed and also gave generously. I will never forget feeling so sick and yet so loved. I’m truly lucky and blessed.
Today I got my results from my third follow up CT scan and it confirmed once again that I am cancer free! 👊🏼 Apparently my lungs still aren’t happy, they’re showing more inflammation. It’s not cancer. It could still be just a side effect from the bleomycin or an infection. I’ll be seeing the pulmonologist tomorrow to see what she thinks.
Now I am working on shedding a few pounds that I gained post-chemo 😬 and trying to get back to a consistent exercise routine. Here’s to a year of wellness free of cancer!
P.S. If you’re a guy under 35, check yourself!
Beckham would’ve turned 5️⃣ on 12/21/17. How could we not buy balloons and donuts to celebrate!? Oh how I wish he could’ve enjoyed his special day with us. I love this picture. It helps me imagine Hudson tackling his brother and having a blast. I know they would love each other, wrestle each other, and wreak havoc on their parents together. My heart longs for Beckham to know his brother and vice versa. Everyday we tell Hudson about his big brother and what a brave boy he was. Every day my heart aches for his loss. It’s often hard for me to make space for grief. I realize it’s never going away, but I tend to avoid the pain of it. I’m getting better at it though, and I’m glad we took time to remember and celebrate. Hudson really enjoyed sending balloons to brother and eating his donuts. #beatsforbeckham#hudsonbehr
H A P P Y N E W Y E A R ! 2️⃣0️⃣1️⃣8️⃣
This kid turned 2️⃣ a couple weeks ago! 😱 to say that he brings so much joy to our house is an understatement... just as it is to say that it’s been super easy. 😳🤦🏻♂️😂 he’s always on the move and talking more and more... he calls me daddy and I couldn’t love him more! Congrats on turning “dosh” #hudsonbehr! 😘🐻
I had my second scan post-chemo at the beginning of November. It caught me off-guard actually. I was having a terrible weekend emotionally and just had a short fuse both with Hudson and Lindsey, when it hit me: my CT Scan is on Monday. It’s such a weird thing our body and mind does to get our attention. I couldn’t just keep ignoring it, I had to face it. Thankfully the scan was clear again! My lungs are still showing a couple of “nonspecific densities” one on the right lower lobe and one on the left. They are not cancer, so that’s good. It could still be inflammation from the bleomycin... I don’t really have any symptoms, so they are not too concerned. So, we will continue to use essential oils to support my lungs and hope that by my next scan those “densities” have cleared. I’m not sure this dance with the unknown will ever stop, it will be pleasant at times and painful at other times, but I am grateful that I am still able to dance. Oh, and my hair is growing back. ✌🏼
This kid loves being outside, and absolutely loves his balance bike! Don’t get me wrong, he gets plenty of screen time... probably too much. But it’s nice to know that going outside trumps the screen! On the days I work from home, we usually take an evening bike ride around the block. 🚴🏽#hudsonbehr
This little fox filled our hearts with joy today. He also made us miss the original fox so much! Oh how I wish Beckham and Hudson could run around and play together. Would Beckham still want to be a fox? Or would he want to be something different for Halloween? One thing I’m sure of, he would love all the candy! #hudsonbehr#beatsforbeckham