This morning I smiled at myself in the mirror as I got ready. I put on my lipstick today. This afternoon I laughed with my coworker. I bought my favorite food and am enjoying it, letting it nourish my body. I pushed myself to do all of it and tomorrow may not be as easy. I haven't loved myself enough. I keep apologizing to myself. But I'm going to try this time to remember that I can accept the love God graciously gives me, over and over and over. To trust in Him fully. To be gracious and forgiving in my pain. I want to love like He does. I'm tired of darkness, resentment and hatred.