joshua j. anahonak @saqurtuliq

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From Port Graham, Alaska. Finding my life in the arms of Christ in Santa Barbara, CA. I love a good book, in depth conversations, coffee, culinary.

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It was a great night of hide and seek and wandering around the park with the starlight with the Nook folk. Oh yes, wizardry.
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It was a great night of hide and seek and wandering around the park with the starlight with the Nook folk. Oh yes, wizardry.

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It's been a a rough couple of days. So I'm taking the night to myself with my new full bed with whiskey and Supernatural
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It's been a a rough couple of days. So I'm taking the night to myself with my new full bed with whiskey and Supernatural

Whiskey tasting with the boys.
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Whiskey tasting with the boys.

Paleo oven-fried chicken! It is heavenly. Worth those 2-3 months I've been craving fried chicken
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Paleo oven-fried chicken! It is heavenly. Worth those 2-3 months I've been craving fried chicken

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Dinner!!! So thankful for my parents to surprise me with long crab 🙌😊
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Dinner!!! So thankful for my parents to surprise me with long crab 🙌😊

Dinner!! SB Farmer's Market has $5 a pound mussels 😊
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Dinner!! SB Farmer's Market has $5 a pound mussels 😊

You were my pleasant surprise. A flash flood during a drought. Refreshing mix of desert and spring. So hard to find, and I cherished every moment.
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You were my pleasant surprise. A flash flood during a drought. Refreshing mix of desert and spring. So hard to find, and I cherished every moment.

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Homework spot of the day! Once I finish drafting a contract for my entrepreneurial law class I am one step closer to Spring Break. It will be a huge blessing to rest the upcoming evenings.
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Homework spot of the day! Once I finish drafting a contract for my entrepreneurial law class I am one step closer to Spring Break. It will be a huge blessing to rest the upcoming evenings.

Yesterday I saw a leaf fall. 
It reminded me of
my last strand of resolve 
crumbling from my fingers. 
In the dry unrepairable way 
that leaves disintegrate. 
In that, I admire the trees ability
to simply stand. 
Bare. Naked. Alone. 
How austere and resolute it stands. 
The way it takes its season to recover. 
No fighting. No screaming. Nothing. 
Here I am. Kneeling with a parody of leaves. 
A semblance of flowers
declaring: I am whole. I am fine. I am ________.
Fighting to appear ‘ok’
while drowning in the hurricane
and flailing in the storm that is my mind. 
Begging. Entreating. Screaming for a stillness. 
Waiting for that quiescence
that comes when staring at your fate
with that moderately grim acceptance. 
Not a graceful, respectful, or even martyred acceptance. 
But the defiant-I’ll-ride-this-out acceptance. 
It in this manner you will find me. 
Slowly dropping the mask of security. 
With sapphire heat and steel grey resolution
glowing from my eyes. 
Quite and still. 
Naked and bare. 
Pleasantly. Alone. // I will find my peace in this coming turbulence. Or I will burnout gloriously. - j. anahonak
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Yesterday I saw a leaf fall. 
It reminded me of
my last strand of resolve 
crumbling from my fingers. 
In the dry unrepairable way 
that leaves disintegrate. In that, I admire the trees ability
to simply stand. 
Bare. Naked. Alone. 
How austere and resolute it stands. 
The way it takes its season to recover. 
No fighting. No screaming. Nothing. Here I am. Kneeling with a parody of leaves. 
A semblance of flowers
declaring: I am whole. I am fine. I am ________.
Fighting to appear ‘ok’
while drowning in the hurricane
and flailing in the storm that is my mind. 
Begging. Entreating. Screaming for a stillness. Waiting for that quiescence
that comes when staring at your fate
with that moderately grim acceptance. 
Not a graceful, respectful, or even martyred acceptance. 
But the defiant-I’ll-ride-this-out acceptance. It in this manner you will find me. 
Slowly dropping the mask of security. 
With sapphire heat and steel grey resolution
glowing from my eyes. 
Quite and still. 
Naked and bare. 
Pleasantly. Alone. // I will find my peace in this coming turbulence. Or I will burnout gloriously. - j. anahonak

Panda being all cute and tucking himself in for a nap. 😻
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Panda being all cute and tucking himself in for a nap. 😻

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Great Sunday to sabbath! Walking on the beach and catching up on life. The next week is going to be my last free week for awhile. By the grace if God I will be a full-time student and also work a 40 hour work week. This upcoming season is going to be full with that but also God pulling me into a season of dwelling with Him and growing in a new depth of the identity and giftings I have been given. I apologize in advance for that I will be posting less and being here less. But never the less, I am doing well and blessed beyond I can imagine. I am now a full-time employee at my job with a raise and I will be pursuing the health benefits also. It was a long time coming: 9 months! I pray all is well with you fiends.
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Great Sunday to sabbath! Walking on the beach and catching up on life. The next week is going to be my last free week for awhile. By the grace if God I will be a full-time student and also work a 40 hour work week. This upcoming season is going to be full with that but also God pulling me into a season of dwelling with Him and growing in a new depth of the identity and giftings I have been given. I apologize in advance for that I will be posting less and being here less. But never the less, I am doing well and blessed beyond I can imagine. I am now a full-time employee at my job with a raise and I will be pursuing the health benefits also. It was a long time coming: 9 months! I pray all is well with you fiends.

Ze lunch crew. Here are bro-banding it out at the Carp Bluffs
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Ze lunch crew. Here are bro-banding it out at the Carp Bluffs

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